• Cancer,  Life,  Musings

    Full Circle

    Three years ago today I received the call – the one that threw my family into a different orbit for some time to come. Lately, I’ve been pondering the last three years a good deal. I’ve noticed how much more “healed” I feel now. The Lord keeps impressing on me to notice these things…and to share them. So, today I share again. THREE has felt very significant lately. After some very quick research, I found that THREE represents wholeness, completion. I experienced a moment of wonder when I found this information. In this particular journey, it has taken three years to feel whole again. This wholeness isn’t something I’ve achieved…

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    Madie’s Story

    My baby girl turns 11 today. Time has a way of softening memories, so I’m writing the story surrounding her birth as a gift to her future self. Madie is my rainbow. That’s a phrase I’ve said to anyone who would listen many times over the years. I say it because her life reminds me that God keeps his promises. Ashley and I found out that we were expecting while traveling to a friend’s wedding rehearsal. We were talking about trying for another child soon, but this news was a surprise. I was so excited and at the same time very anxious as our son was born 6 weeks early,…

  • Cancer,  Musings

    Surviving

    This morning as I drove my daughter downtown to Nutcracker practice, enthusiastically singing along to 70s dance hits, feeling carefree and happy, tears sprang to my eyes. This is what surviving looks like right now – deliciously, blissfully mundane and normal. Not a week goes by that I’m not hit with this same feeling of thankfulness – just insert a different scenario. The practice of referring to cancer patients as “survivors” has generally unsettled me, but I’ve never been able to put words to what bothered me about it. Lately, my thoughts have come together. I have realized that the label of “survivor” (noun) implies something that has already happened.…

  • Cancer,  Life,  Musings

    Three Months Out – Abundance

    A little over three months have passed since my final chemo treatment. I had my first follow-up appointment last week, and it felt surreal walking back into the oncology clinic. There are days when I almost forget that the last eight months were anything other than normal – and then I remember and am instantly thankful to be at this point in recovery! Since the last time we were together, school and all the activities have ended, we’ve beached, and summer has fully descended (and throw my birthday, our anniversary, and Reese’s birthday into the mix as well). I’m actually looking at my calendar to remember what has happened because…

  • Cancer,  Musings

    Cast Iron Magnolia. Who Knew?

    When I originally tiptoed into the world of blogging, it was at the urging of a couple of friends as a way for me to share recipes. When setting up the site, I wanted a name that was fun and perhaps a little meaningful. Cast Iron Magnolia popped into my head and wouldn’t go away. The name felt a little silly or melodramatic to me at that time, but obviously I went with it. The reference to Steel Magnolias cannot be missed, and that was intentional. Southerness would ooze throughout my posts – people needed to know what they were getting into.[ I also want it to be noted that this…

  • Cancer,  Musings

    Stone-Washed Stockings and My Homeroom Mom

    When I was in the third grade, my mom was the homeroom mother for my class. I never questioned this at the time, but looking back, I wonder how on earth she made this work. Mom’s job was running a daycare out of our home. There weren’t lunch breaks or days off, or any of those other things that allow working-moms a touch of breathing-room. So, how she put together parties for our class remains a mystery (not to mention before Volunteer-Spot and email and Facebook and texting…). I tell you this to set the stage for a memory that has grown in significance to me as I journey along this…

  • Cancer,  Musings

    Psalm 3 – A Prayer

    Please pray this scripture (customized from Psalm 3) with me. Pray it over Mama, or yourself, or whoever in your life needs to fight or is giving up.  “But you o Lord are a shield around HER, HER glory, and the one who lifts HER head high.  She’ll call out to the Lord, and He’ll answer from His holy mountain.  She will lie down in sleep and wake again because the Lord sustains her. She will not fear though an enemy has invaded her body. And the the army attacks her insides, feeling like the enemy.  Arise Lord! Deliver her, my God! Bring her strength and hunger and the energy…

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    My Mom Called at 9:30 Last Night

    That’s never a good sign. With that call came news that a cousin may not make it through the night. Such a kick to the gut. I continued with my plunge into Downton Abbey season 1 escapism. I’ve been escaping a lot lately and in this season of Thanksgiving, I am very thankful for easy escapes on the screen. During the scramble to get the first child out the door this morning, I received another call. My cousin had passed just a few hours prior. No escape now. But no time to really process either – I had to get myself presentable and my youngest ready for her debut as…

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  • Musings

    Why Cast Iron?

    WHY CAST IRON? Cast Iron is a true equalizer of southern heritage. It lives as contentedly in the great antebellum mansions as it does in the trailer out on mama and daddy’s land (and every home in between). You would be hard pressed to find a southerner who doesn’t own a cast iron cornbread skillet or stand to inherit one someday. I personally feel a sense of “place” every time I use a piece of my (growing) collection. Many people dear to me have been nourished by these humble pieces of cookware – and that holds me near to my roots. Now my own children often help me cook with…

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